Too much, too much, too much!

Some more bad news. Can't change my insurance to a PPO - period.

So, my only options right now are to:

1) Appeal, appeal, appeal

2) Wait until next 'open enrollment' to switch to a PPO (July 2010)

3) Pay cash (I am getting a more accurate estimate but basically it's like purchasing

another house!)

All the above could actually make me grow another tumor - seriously.....

Had a really bad morning.......why?? Because it's really hard to stay POSITIVE all the time when I keep getting bad news!!! And all this bad news does NOT help the potty mouth I am trying to get rid of! :(

Stay positive, stay focused. I can do this, right? I feel like it's me up against several 'admin savvy' doctors and all their attorneys. So, I have to be smarter than them, find the avenue that will get what "I" need.

How fitting for today's Daily affirmation:

"Take the attitude in your life that everything that happens to you - especially if you've been hurt or wronged - has a reason that you sometimes can't see. Be willing to go along with it and be as gracious as possible. Sometimes you have to accept the unacceptable. When you do this, your cells won't suffer and your immune system won't either. And you'll feel a lot better!" (Dr. Christiane Northrup)

"Be as gracious as possible" - o.k...that can be hard on days like today. But, at the end of the day, when I reflect on the 'big picture,' I still have so much to be grateful for in my life. Things will happen.....

Night -

Rachelle