Happy Birthday Ms. Camryn! :)

Today was my little girls 1st B-Day!!!!! I can't believe how this last year has flown. I am glad to almost be done with bottle washing but at the same time, sad that the whole newborn/baby stage is almost over.. :( It's certainly bitter-sweet.......... I had two rough pregnancies (my tumor caused Bells Palsey with my first pregnancy and severe vertigo with my second). Little did I know that I had this tumor but now that I do, I have been told by two doctors that it's best not to get pregnant, ever again. Reason being is that there are two 'types' of tumors mine could be. One has estrogen receptors on it - therefore could grow by the increase in hormones during pregnancy. Chris and I had always talked about only having two but when someone 'tells' you that you shouldn't have any more kids, it makes that pill a little harder to swallow.

I am blessed with two HEALTHY children.......so, I am o.k. with how things are! :)

I FINALLY figured out how to add music!! Thanks Nancy! :) I think I told you that right now my favorite song is the "Black Eyed Peas - "I Gotta Feeling" - so upbeat and fun. When the sh&% started to hit the fan with my situation, I kept hearing this song and it just instantly put me in a good mood. So, when you connect to my blog - that is what you are going to hear first!!

My second choice is Van Halen's "Right now." I'll also tell you that I love country, R&B, hip-hop, rock, heavy metal - ALL of it...I am definitely more of an '80's queen' but I like a lot of different genres......so, you might find my playlist a little strange.. :) But, there is a story to each of them.

Now, back to my second choice. When I was going through paramedic school, I was having a little bit of a hard time in my field internship. It was almost guaranteed that 50% of your class would fail medic school but mostly in your 'field' time (which consisted of doing approximetly 3 months of shifts with a paramedic crew and having them critique you). It was one of the hardest things I ever did and I don't care what anyone says but basically in approximately 10 months, you are taught to diagnose patients and make life threatening decisions. It's very intense. So, to get pumped up before my shift, I would play this song over and over on my way to the fire station. For some reason it got me focused on what I needed to do with each shift. Everyone has a different way of dealing with things and this is what helped me. I ended up graduating and everytime I hear that song, it takes me back to those days. I have to give a shout out to Jim & Phil (my paramedic preceptors from Vista Fire) who put up with all my ups and downs and to Mary C. (my field instructor) who rode my butt (like white on rice) but pushed me to be a good medic. THANKS!! :)

OK - got off on a little tangent there but sometimes it's fun to reminisce about the ol' days!! :)

What a GREAT DAY!!!

A friend of mine posted a comment on my blog on how to remember to 'stay in the moment and to not dwell on the past or worry about the future.' I was certainly doing that this last week so thanks Nancy for bringing me 'back' to where I need to be. Post your comments!! I read all of them and they really make an impact on me.

Today's Daily Affirmation:

Every day in every way I am freely opening my senses to the beauty in myself and opening up to all the beauty around me and in all the people I encounter - Random affirmation from 'holistic healings.'

It's been a long day but one full of memories. Happy Birthday to my sweet little baby girl. I love you!!!

Rachelle